lonely nights

I was watching Jon and Kate + 8 last night. Kate was talking about how lonely the nights can get. It struck a cord with me. They do get very lonely. I love my children more than anything but it is lonely not having somebody to share an adult conversation with. There is only so much you can tell a 5 year old that you don't want everyone knowing! But school does take up alot of my time now at night but its not the same ;) I am about to take my first test this week and am quite nervous about it! The kids are depending on me to do well in school and get a job! I also try to make it to the Y everyday to work off this baby wieght and to have some me time! My ex does not take the kids like he is suppose to so I am thankful that the Y offers parents night out! I am going to do the first one in October and hopefully get some early christmas shopping done. My goal is to be done by thanksgiving.... We will see how well that goes! I do have to add to this that i am so blessed to have my Mom. She has been my rock through this whole process! I honestly dont know what i would do with out her!