What if?

What if I had told B that i wanted to get back together and try to work things out? What if i told him that over christmas. Would he have lied about his gf? Would he have ever told me? Or would he just keep her on the side? I was thinking about this last night.... Partly because i know he is not being honest about how long he has been together with his gf.  The only thing i asked was that while we are still married that we go to each other when we were ready to date so that we could figure out together what was best for the kids. I dont like the fact that she met the kids before he told me about her. or that i had to learn about her from my 5 yr old. ....Yes I want the divorce hands down! I would never get back with B there is no trust there......But again what if?